NIKI SOUTH               Student number: 514516

“The hidden me”


Demonstration of technical and visual skills: I chose to construct my ideas in “real time” in one photograph per image. I considered using photo-montage or photography combined with collage to represent my ideas which I think would have been easier. Working with props and layers within each image was challenging with self-portraiture (difficulties: focus, depth of field, movement, composition whilst in the picture) however I decided that although the photographs may not be as polished as usual they would be realistic and closer to representing me.

  • My observational skills were tested as I was moving quickly in and out of camera and I had to both see the composition and then be a part of it.
  • I composed and constructed each image before shooting, although when I reviewed images I had to make changes to gain the effect I wanted.
  • I considered carefully what I wanted inside each frame to convey a message, and therefore for each image which part of me I used was important; for instance in The peacemaker it was the centre, the heart of me that I want the viewer to focus on.
  • I also thought carefully about the perspective I presented in terms of the message I was giving; for instance shooting The Escapist with the bars on top of my body whilst shooting downwards, which I thought enhanced the feeling of containment I wanted to portray.
  • I carefully considered the background and colours for each image, for instance choosing white for The Peacemaker, green for the Escapist, and warm spicy colours for The Lover.
  • I used a remote camera timer for the first time and made extensive use of the self-timer. I also experimented for only the second time with a Speedlight and chose to work without it when this would be more effective and a slow shutter speed could be used.
  • I was surprised that three of the final four images chosen were taken at an aperture of f.8, however this reflects that I had a similar judgement on what aperture would give me the depth of focus I needed.

Quality of outcome:

  • It is hard for me to judge the coherence of my work as I agree that self-portraits are “charts of the most personal sort usually done in quiet complicity with the self” (Sobieszek, 1978). There are elements of some of the images that are meaningful to me but that I would not want to have to explain to others; I hope that there is enough in each image that enables the viewer to build meaning.
  • I considered the images as a series as well as singularly, this is why I reshot The Organiser with more than my hands and arms in it, even though I eventually returned to just my fingers. It was also one of the reasons and why I cropped The Lover to a closer shot when I found the image I wanted to use.
  • I constructed the order of the series to build up the narrative for the viewer from the less hidden of my selves to the most intimate of my multiple selves.
  • I chose to crop to a square ratio as I think this enhances the concept of “The hidden me” as it draws your eye into the centre of the image.
  • The images are cruder (less perfect) than I would normally tolerate but I hope that this is acceptable due to the nature of the self-portraiture and theme that I am trying to relate.

Demonstration of creativity

  • I moved from a position of not wanting to put myself in the picture to doing so with a purpose, self-reflection. This was risky for me and I used little disguise, ultimately dismissing mirrors and masks.
  • I experimented as I shot and after reviewing images to get what I thought were the most effective results.
  • I believe my concept itself of the hidden me is creative and that my construction of these is imaginative.

Context: I researched through exhibitions photographers and books both self-portraiture in general and photographic self-portraits; my learning points were invaluable when planning and executing my assignment:

  • To comprehend hard on my multiple selves and my identity.
  • Not to fear self-portraiture as self-exploration can be therapeutic and enlightening.
  • To consider carefully backgrounds, colours, framing and perspective.
  • To work within a short time frame to keep the focus; I shot all images in a few days. It is possible however that I have sacrificed quality a little for this focus and may need to return and reshoot to improve them when I reflect.


Sobieszek, R (1978) “Other selves in photographic Self-Portraiture” in: Sobieszek and Irmas (1994). The camera i. 1st ed. Los Angeles: Los Angeles county museum of art.



NIKI SOUTH                       Student number 514516




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“The Organiser”

Image 3: Exposure 1/8 sec,   Aperture f/11, ISO 200, Focal length 28mm


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 “The Escapist”

Image 36: Exposure 1/6 sec,   Aperture f/8, ISO 200, Focal length 50mm


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“The Peacemaker”

Image 13: Exposure 0.3 sec, Aperture f/8, ISO 200, Focal length 50mm

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“The lover”

Image 37: Exposure 0.3 sec,   Aperture f/8, ISO 200, Focal length 41mm



Learning log

Assignment 3: Putting yourself in the picture.

Preparation: I kept a diary for a few weeks and however when I reviewed it I thought it was more of a list of events and activities than a real insight into me (Sport: Running, rowing, tennis, gym work, travel, holidays and social events). By this time I had been reading and researching photographers who had embraced self-portraiture and I was perhaps feeling a little braver. I had never liked the idea of self-portraiture and will do everything I can to stay out of photographs, so had toyed initially with using shadows or what I now know is self-absenting portraiture. However I could see also that self-portraiture could be useful for self-exploration, and being a reflective creature I thought I would challenge myself.

I came up with the idea of presenting the hidden me that is not in the diary but runs underneath the events in the diary, even before I had finished my research. At the end of my research I realised that my idea of the hidden me actually chimed with others like Claude Cahun, Gillian Wearing, Trish Morrissey and Daniela Rossell who have explored their multiple selves.

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As I moved on from here my ideas focused around how to in self- portraits represent my multiple inner selves: The Peacemaker, The Lover, The Escapist and The Organiser. I considered props, mirrors, and fragments of myself as I thought I would need some disguise or masking. I decided to use some props not so much as to hide but to represent ideas around each self. I toyed with collage and photomontage but decided in the first instance to try shooting the ideas in one image. Whether I would fully embrace putting myself in the picture to explore my identity remains to be seen but I had the motive and intention.

Shooting notes: Self-portraiture is harder than it looks! I began with “The Organiser”, set the shot up at my desk with props, selecting just my hands/arms to be in shot. Using a new remote camera trigger I played with various focal lengths and orientations, though I wasn’t wowed with the outcomes. Next I shot “The Escapist” trying out different props but ultimately settled on camouflage gear and background, bars, a key and a watch only to create the narrative. “The Peacemaker” took a lot of setting up but less shooting once I had everything as I wanted, as I was very sure of the final image I was looking for. It was just my hand positioning that took time to capture as I wanted. Finally “The lover”, which took many more shots to achieve what I wanted. I then reshot “The Organiser” using a magnetic board and myself in a upright position and experimented with including some of my head, as I felt that compared to the other three images only using my hands/arms was too minimal. I tried all images with and without a speed light and settled without where I could be sure there would be no movement (“The Peacemaker” and “The Lover”). It was a coincidence that three out of four of my chosen images were shot at an  aperture of f/8 but my range was only f/8 – f/11 as I wanted to get as much of each image in focus. The focal lengths ranged from 28mm to 63mm but those with a body or head shot were mostly around 50 mm as this what I found the most comfortable distance from the camera and enabled me to play with the composition the best; I did shoot closer where it was just my hands.

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Editing: When editing for The Organiser I thought about choosing an image with the back of my head as well as my arms and hands as I felt that would sit in the series better, though ultimately I decided to just show  hint of my hands. These were the last 2 images that I eliminated:

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The Escapist was easier to edit as I had only a few images out of those shot where my head was in the correct position once I had arrived at the best composition with only the bars, key and clock as props.

The choice of image for The Peacemaker was decided by the nature of my hands as I wanted to convey caring. The hands were difficult to get right as the vase when full of oil and water was heavy, even though I had eventually balanced it on a table in front of me. I think the image I chose illustrates me cupping and wrapping round the vase and the peace lilies as opposed to its closest runner where my hands and torso look more tense:

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            Final image 13                                      Not used Image 19

I had the most images to choose from for The Lover as I had experimented the most, having to allow for movement and retakes and had returned to my set up several times after reviewing images. I narrowed it down to:

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Image 63                           or                                Image 48

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Eventually I decided that the image that I wanted to share would actually be conveyed better by a close up and so I tried cropping each of these tighter towards me and eliminating foreground; these were more effective and I also settled on a square crop for the whole series as I felt this suited the concept of the “hidden me” better. I don’t usually crop to this extent but I felt justified as the results were what I wanted.

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